2011-12-19T08:26:00.000-08:00

With 5 lecture notes beside me, i was wondering which subject i was with the most confident with. My answer is not a single one.

Seriously now studying to me is absolutely a phobia is just like a cold blooded thingy. I still remember when i was in secondary school, our class is so damn bonded. We study together, play together, laugh together and help each other out. Sometimes even when i fail my test i dont feel that sad because alot of my classmates fail together with me HAHA! so i was still not the last.

I remember there was a time my form teacher insisted that i did not give the 50$ donation which i had confirm plus chop that i had already gave previously. I was so upset. Because of my 50$ our form teacher asked the whole class to sell muroko in the canteen. I thought my class would blame me for sacrificing their recess time to sell of the muroko. Instead, the guys in my class asked me not to be sad and even tell me that they believe me that i did gave the 50$. After that, they shouted " Lets go sell moroko ". The girls in my class consoled me not to be sad about cause they saw my teary eye. At that point of time i was damn touched. During secondary although study is hard but the warm~ness and the spirit of my classmates inspired me. We are willing to share and teach each other if we have anything we do not know. We help each other to improve too.We are just like 1 big family!:)

Now in poly i seriously cannot feel the class spirit and the togetherness in our class.Nothing. If you fail, you are the only one who fail. Everyone is so competitive. Is so cold in hearted.(maybe air con too cold arh secondary no air con warmer)XD

I also realise that poly friend and secondary friend define friendship different.

Studying really need a lot of encourage and help especially for a slow learner like me. Are you all willing to help me?

Trust me i really really treasure friendship. Do you know if you show me attitude on that day i will think what i have done wrongly. On the other hand if you show me you care for me i will be damn happy for that day. I will think that even there is any big problem around me i will be able to resolve it because i have you. I sincerely hope that you will treat me how i treat you too.

Last of all i really miss my secondary school class which i previously did not appreciate. I will like time to rewind back just for half an hour to let me feel the warm but it is simply impossible.

2011-12-19T05:50:00.000-08:00

Since years i have not updated any post already i shall now revive my blog.

Seriously, I was damn pissed off today. Cant they just understand and dont insist of buying such an expensive present! Since they have already decide what to buy. And seriously if i say that i am not sharing with them again i am sure alot of them will bu shuang and this will affect friendship again. Is not that i dont want to share but why cant it be a reasonable price that everyone can afford and share equally? I am really SICK and TIRED of this anymore. It was not that i was petty, but i really do not have so much money! I have driving lesson and sometimes i have to go out with friends all this need money and i have to pay all this by myself! ya you will think that i can cut down on my entertainment expense but seriously everytime i go out with friends i only eat and go window shopping with them i seldom buy clothes if yes i got buy i only buy those cheap ones. Present is just about sincerity doesnt mean that the more expensive present bought means more sincerity and deeper friendship you will have. Friendship is to show care and concern to your friends, share happy and woes together, and share what you have with them. I dont care le next time i most i can only fork out $12. Or we can like everyone of us fork out $12 then decide with this amount of what we can buy. Isnt this better. I am sure 12x8=$96, we can buy alot of stuffs including a cake.

Can i just tell them that i will not share the present with them.Can i just say that i will buy the present on my own. Can i say that you all dont have to buy expensive stuffs for me. A cake and a birthday song will really make me happy.Really.

little~twins~star